There was a song at church actually a couple of them that brought this to mind.
How many of our expectations as moms are dependent upon our performance and ability to achieve? We take responsibility for the Whole person of our children, their safety, diet, cleanliness, attitude, manners, success and perhaps even their salvation. I know that one of my greatest fears is to raise children that end up in server moral failures and that they would choose not to love God. I wonder how my parents did it. My siblings and I all turned out deeply in Love with Jesus. I somehow think that this is my responsibility to keep them knowing God, loving God.
With all of the pressure I place on myself to be a good mom, loving my children and make sure my attitude is like Christ and my discipline is effective, I often feel like I didn't quite measure up on certain days. Well a lot of days. I fail at my own standards. I second guess my decisions. I yell at my children, I feel angry, my own self control is well, you know don't you mamma's. I know I am not a lone and some days are hard right? Children just don't always get it and they don't always agree with the choices that we make for them. Some days I don't feel at all qualified to a mom. This is where the song comes in.....
If you can use anything Lord, you can use me. (I posted this song to my facebook if you don't know it)
God used an old couple, a barren woman on the least desirable land, to bring about a nation of Gods people. He used a washed up, run away, Hebrew raised Egyptian, to free His people. He used a people who turned from Him over and over again to bring about His Son. God used an over zealous, sinking Peter to spread His message across the world. And so many more people that were simply not qualified. They were tent makers, fishermen, tax collectors and yet God used them to do His great work.
Counselors, teachers, paramedics, nurses, business women, what is it that you are successful in, or trained in, and you feel "fit" for. All of you moms are fit by God to be a Mom. Even on your worst days God can use you to impact the lives of your children. Be lead by God and He is faithful to lead your children. Trust in Him He will change you. Don't get so upset at yourself or put so much pressure on yourself He will qualify you to be the mom that your children need.
For me this was a freeing idea that God can use me, with all of my imperfections. He is bigger than my failures and perceived failures. He loves me even when I struggle to love my children and He fills in where I can't. Yes moral failure and loss of faith may come to my children but God is still in control and He still love them and calls them to Himself. For now I rest in the Grace of God as I surrender my life to His transformation in me.
My Children. Please God Speak to them and use them. Keep them safe from my imperfections that may drive them from Your love. Please Use Me Lord.
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